When you see me on your TV screen.
It may be the first time.
But it won't be the last time.
And I'll scream because I need everyone in this place,
To hear every word I say.
This is my time.
This is my time to shine."
my life.
- Location:My house
- Mood:
contemplative - Music:None
The point of this entry? I wanted to write about how immature some people can be sometimes. How spineless people can be. To the point where they still have to get adults to take care of their problems because they're too stupid to deal with them themselves. Can someone PLEASE explain to me why eighteen, nineteen, twenty year olds feel the need to still depend on adults? They are adults! If you can buy cigarettes and lottery tickets, you can take care of your own drama. There is no need whatsoever to pull adults in to the issue. None at all. If you can't handle the situations that you get yourself in to, you should not be in college. Go back to high school and start some drama there because no one here needs your immature whining. No one.
First of all, if you're mad at someone for whatever reason, you should probably tell them why you're mad at them. You don't go from being best friends to not speaking for no reason. It's juvenile and pathetic and makes you look like a complete idiot. And you don't just randomly text the person you're mad at, asking them stupid questions. Really, who does that? Grow a spine and tell the person why you're mad. It will make you look better, instead of making you seem high school level. We're adults now. We're eighteen plus and there is no reason at all why a person can't look another person in the eyes and tell them why they're making you angry. There is no excuse and if you still feel the need to be an idiot and not tell them why you're mad, then you're the immature one. It doesn't matter what the other person did to anger you. You need to tell them what they did so maybe next time, they can fix it. It's really easy. Put aside your pride because it won't get you anywhere. This kind of situation is the kind that goes on in high school. Not in college.
Another thing. If you date someone and then just happen to break up, for any reason, you should not hold a grudge. Where does that even get you? "Oh I'm not going to talk to her/him because they broke up with me for [insert reason here]." Uh okay? Get over it? There are plenty of other people in the world that you can date. I'm pretty sure that any relationship you have up until your junior year of college is completely worthless and should probably not even be attempted. I'm not trying to be a hypocrite here. I do, in fact, have a boyfriend. But I don't believe that I'll marry him. Even if me and him did break up, I'm sure that we'd still be friends. Friendship should always come before a relationship. And work should always come before friends/parties/whatever. It's like the food pyramid. But the social pyramid. I think I'll draw it on Paint.
That's my pyramid. Live by that and you'll have a great college experience. I promise.
[ [ EDIT ] ] I just kind of realized that I sound a lot like a parent. I didn't mean to. Haha. It just makes sense, you know?
- Location:My CLEAN Dorm Room
- Mood:
hungry - Music:"Marching Bands Of Manhattan" by Deathcab For Cutie
So relationships. First of all, starting one can be the most frustrating thing in the entire world. Not only does it take some serious backbone to get the nerve to talk to the person who is the center of your attention, what are you going to do if they say no? Sure, it's the worst thing that could happen. But what if they laugh at you? Or make fun of you in some twisted way? Honestly, if the person you like makes fun of you (And they're serious), it's probably a lost cause. You should probably give it up because they're an idiot and have zero people skills. So don't worry about it. But if you see someone who catches your eyes, either at the mall or the store or walking on the street, there really isn't a reason you shouldn't talk to them. Unless they're clearly already with someone, in which case, back off because they're taken and hitting on taken people can cause more drama in your life than you're prepared to handle. Example of a good way to talk to someone; If you're just chilling outside on campus, say the freshman courtyard, and you see someone attractive. What are you going to do? Don't just stare. Ninety percent of the time, if you're blatantly checking someone out, they'll notice. Attempt to make it discreet if you can't get up the nerve to talk to them but don't just openly stare. People are a lot more observant than most think. Anyway, so you see someone cute sitting outside, just kind of chilling out. You stare a little bit, just casually. Not like a full scale up-down check out. Just kind of wondering where people like that come from. Haha. Ok so anyway, they smile at you. First of all, that might just be a sign that they think you're cute too. Or they could be smiling at someone behind you, in which case makes you feel like a complete tool when you smile back. But you make eye contact when they smile at you. That means something, at least. They've noticed you. Now comes the whole "talking to" part that every one hates. What do you say to a person you've never met before? You can causally ask them for the time, but I'm pretty sure that line has been shot dead because people use it so much. You could just be wicked straightforward and ask for their number but they might get weirded out. So the people you're with decide that they don't want to chill in the courtyard anymore and you're totally going to lose your chance. You start to walk away, change your mind, turn around and face this person. You could totally say something completely adorable like "I want to get to know you. Can I please have your number?" I've never heard a better pick up line. Not only is that absolutely adorable, but you say PLEASE. Be respectful when you talk to people you don't know. First impressions mean a lot, even to people who claim that they don't. So be respectful of them and the people around them. If you're trying to talk to someone and insult another person, you have no idea if the person you're trying to talk to is friends with the person that you're talking trash about. Ok, example from personal experience.
I went to this beach by my house when I lived at home. There were usually kids from Pennecook that went there and it was a totally ill place to chill. It was under this huge bridge and there was a rope swing and a beach and the river was beautiful. So I was there with my friends Andrew and Rin and there was a big group of Penne kids there. I had no problem with them. One kid kept staring at me and I totally just like blew it off because I was with Andrew at the time. My little brother (Who is a completely amazing kid and I love him) and his friends were walking up the river to the other rope swing. Two of the Penne kids were climbing the bridge to jump off it (Completely dangerous and completely illegal, might I add) and the kid who had kept staring at me was taunting them and saying that they wouldn't jump. And then, completely out of the blue, the kid just goes "When you jump off you should go up the river and drown those kids up there."
First thing, my brother is my best friend. He is the coolest kid I've ever met in my entire life. I love him to death and I would do anything for the kid. Second, NEVER EVER EVER EVER TALK BADLY ABOUT SOMEONE WHEN THERE ARE S
So that's your lesson in talking to the person. Make sure you don't sound completely stupid and don't try to hook up with them right away. People don't like that. It's annoying when someone asks you to make out and you don't even know their name yet. Not a good idea. It's actually kind of insulting. Try to be yourself but don't be obnoxious because that can get really annoying to some people. Relationships will always be a seriously large amount of work. To be able to stay together for years upon years and not get tired of the person is incredible.
So I wrote this like yesterday and I totally have no motivation to finish it now. I'll write again at some point. This entry is terrible.
- Location:MY VERY CRAMPED DORM ROOM
- Mood:
pissed off - Music:"Bedroom" by Armor For The Broken
So I bet by now, you can tell that I'm really in to music and that it's a huge part of my life. My iPod is a permanent fixture in my purse; the headphones are almost constantly in my ears. I even have two iPods (I bought them with my own money. Don't think I'm some spoiled brat.) because all my music doesn't fit on just one. I listen to music when I go to sleep, when I wake up in the morning, when I'm driving, when I'm with friends. I love it. And I try to not keep a one track mind when it comes to music. I try to listen to a large variety (Notice I don't say "everything"). I listen to anything from hardcore to metal (There's a difference, kids. Look it up if you don't believe me.) and mainstream rap to scene techno (Yeah it's a real genre.). I feel like listening to more than one specific genre gives me more in common with different people. I understand that not everyone loves hardcore, so if I meet someone that doesn't like it, I can always talk to them about rap or techno. It doesn't really matter to me.
When I meet someone new and they don't really care about music (It's not a big part of their lives) I find it very difficult to talk about anything with them. I don't know why, because it really shouldn't matter. But for some reason, I get a little deterred from them. Most of my conversations throughout the day have to do with music. It's such an important piece of SO MANY cultures around the world. It's incredible and I don't really see how some people don't really need music in their lives to make them happy. I know that when I'm upset or sad, I'll listen to music and think to myself "Oh my god, there's someone out there who is feeling what I'm feeling; they know what I'm going through and they've been through it too!" That's a really good feeling when you feel terrible. Not only does music calm people down, it can also pump you up. I've been to over 100 concerts in the past three years and at every single one, I've felt incredibly energized. That is, until I get kicked and/or punched. Then I feel terrible and usually curl up in my car or a friends' car and fall asleep. Shows get brutal; be prepared if you ever decide to go to one.
Okay so I know that most people don't like hardcore. Most people think that it's just screaming and they're really not saying words. But how do you have any idea if you don't give it a chance? So mainstream rap is all about how big their car's tires are or how many parties they go to or whatever. That can be cool, if you're at a party or driving in a city. But what do you listen to when you're in an emotional mood? I'm pretty sure that you don't want to be listening to Lil' Wayne when you just broke up with your boyfriend or girlfriend. So what are you supposed to listen to? I make playlists that are strictly chill music. My most recent one ("You Need To Breathe") includes the following songs:
"Amazing Because It Is" by the Almost
"Here We Stand" by Amber Pacific
"Pouring Reign" by As Blood Runs Black
"First Day Of My Life" by Bright Eyes
"Intensity In Ten Cities" by Chiodos
"Umbrellas and Elephants" by Cinematic Sunrise
"You Had Me At Hello" by A Day To Remember
"Emily" by From First To Last
"I'd Hate To Be You When People Find Out What This Song Is About" by Mayday Parade
"We Are Broken" by Paramore
"Echoing Airports" by the One AM Radio
"I Am A Pirate, You Are A Princess" by Playradioplay!
"Time After Time" by Quietdrive
"You're Not Alone" by Saosin
"I'll Be Your Sunset" by A Rocket To The Moon
"She Is Just A Glitch" by Sky Eats Airplane
"Under the Covers" by the Spill Canvas
That's definately not all of them; but some of them. There's fifty nine songs on the list total. But like, do you see any Lil' Wayne on there? Any TI? No? Of course not. That's not music that you listen to when you're upset. Andy Greenwald wrote a book called "Nothing Feels Good" and the book covered this kind of thing. That listening to mainstream rap during a time of grief or pain can actually damage you more than if you were to listen to an alternative type of music. It's proven. So next time you fight with your girlfriend or boyfriend, instead of turning on the radio, get on Myspace and look up some chill acoustic bands. City in Colour, which is Alexisonfire's side project, is an amazing band to listen to if you're feeling a little melancholy. It could possibly brighten up your day. And if you're really angry at something, why not listen to the Acacia Strain or Bury Your Dead? It might just chill you out. You never know until you try it.
I guess the moral of this entry is be open to others' opinions. Hardcore is not just screaming and mainstream rap is not just annoying. There are times in your day when you could use both. You can't disagree with that. If you do decide to try this, to try and listen to a different type of music than what you're used to, let me know. Look me up on Facebook and tell me what you thought. And I'll write about it in my next entry. I'm serious, guys, try this out. I'm really interested in what you think.
<3 Love,
RaRa
- Location:Gordon's Room
- Mood:
bouncy - Music:"Put Your Hood Up" by Set Your Goals
My parents were here this weekend. It was really weird to have them walking around with me. They took me to Wal-Mart though, which was nice because I run out of food faster than anyone I know. I'm not sure about how I feel on the idea of Parents Day. I mean, yeah it was nice to see my family, but after like two hours or so, it just felt like being at home again. I just got so frustrated with them. Especially when we were at Kimballs (Go there, they have amazing burgers) and my mom wouldn't order her food, so therefore I couldn't because we ordered together because they were paying. That was a little frustrating because I was famished and just wanted a burger and waffle fries. But all in all, it was nice to see them for the first two hours. I hope everyone else had a good Parents Day. I know that there are a lot of parents still here and I won't lie, I feel a little weird walking around and seeing kids still with their parents. I get some funny looks sometimes. Which is pathetic. Don't judge people by the way they look. Okay sure, my hair is blonde and black but that doesn't mean I don't belong here. I've got more to talk about than a lot of other people from my high school, so don't shoot me dirty looks when I walk by. I'm not stupid, I know what's up.
Anyway, I have to get going because the game is in twenty minutes and I'm still in my pajamas (Best part about college is the sleeping-all-the-time thing. I love it.). So if something cool happens at the game, I'll edit this entry and write about it. Have a good day, kids.
- Location:My Dorm, Like Always
- Mood:
cynical - Music:"Six" by All Shall Perish
So this will be my first entry in my LiveJournal. It feels weird to write because I know that people I see every day will read this eventually. It kind of worries me about the things they'll think. Kind of. I don't believe in sweating the small stuff. Why bother? Life is short. Enjoy it now. Or at least try. That's how I've been trying to look at life since I got out of high school. Which was like three months ago but whatever. It's a start, right?
I should probably tell you some stuff about myself, just so you can get a basic idea of who I am, blah blah blah. I'm seventeen. Yeah, I'm young. Probably one of the youngest kids on campus. I graduated from high school a year early (Skipped senior year) because I hated the school and the people that went to it. A bunch of stuck up kids who thought that they were the center of the world. Yeah well they're definately not. When they hit college, they'll hopefully realize how blind they really are. Maybe they won't. I don't know. Anyways, so I'm younger than a lot of people think. Music is not my life but it's a big chunk of it. I have a radio show as well as this blog (105.3 FM every Monday night from 8pm-10pm) and I try to play music that most people don't really know about. We have a myspace but the URL isn't too nice. Just listen to the station. The Myspace is for recruiting bands anyway and I bet none of you are in bands. I used to play in a band when I was in like eighth grade. We sounded like the Blood Brothers (You can look them up if you want but they're terrible) and it was fun until high school. Once I was a freshman, I kind of stopped caring about the things that used to matter. I think that happens when you move up in life because I know that once I got to college, I was like "Aw man nothing from high school matters these days." It's just a part of growing up. Ok I keep getting way off track and talking about redundant issues that don't need to be talked about. SO! About me; Seventeen, loves music, what else? I like being outside. I've been sea kayaking in Maine before, I've climbed Mt. Washington more than three times, I plan on hiking Tuckerman's Ravine this summer with my snowboard, I've been rockclimbing. I have five horses back home and I'm debating getting back into horseback riding. I'm petrified of horses. They're huge, the ones we have. Friesians? Those things could crush you in like one kick. It's scary. My mom takes care of them. I just watch.
I guess I'll be writing about my life in this blog. About my friends and boyfriends (Which I seem to have a lack of) and family and how weird it is to be away from my parents. I hope that I'm not too boring. The only reason this entry is lame is because I really don't know what to write; it's really hard to write about myself and make it sound good. Plus, I doubt you'll ever get to know me over the Internet. I'm one of those people you really just have to meet in person. But I hope you enjoy the things I write about. I hope I'm not too, too boring.
Thanks guys!
<3 RaRa (aka Morgan)
- Location:My dorm
- Mood: sick
- Music:Just Surrender "Bad Language and Body Habits"
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